okay okay.. after done being emo for like a year... now.. it's time for an update.. just to keep this running.. a year ago.. seems pretty damn long but i can remember it like it was yesterday. i was in the desert a year ago thinking to myself if i'll ever come back the same person. seemingly. i sorta did but at the same time i grew up. it's not about the partying and stuff like that. it's about enjoying that moment. wheither if its with your friends, family or someone you love. just enjoy it. i came back to the u.s. in october 2007. god it felt great. to be in the u.s. once again. although a tad bit disappointed.. nahhhhhh . i loved it! every single minute of it. got to party, see all my friends agains, and had many fun times. in november.. i went to a wedding in kc, kansas. went there to be rany's date. lol she had another date already but oh well. she was a pimp like that lol.. congrats bobby and with your new kids thanksgiving. i went to arkansas to actually visit my friends and my bro boun. cause we besties like that. i kinda hooked up with anna.. but it didn't last so long due to that she was the jeolous type and she was thinking all crazy stuff like if was not faithful. which i wasn't cause i didn't holla at any girls for awhile. 2 weeks it lasted.. sigh... december.. i just started working at express. got to meet zel and angela. what a cool time of the year. me and angela hooked up too for christmas. she was cute but very dependent.. not cool in my book. so yeah.. lol. spent my christmas with her and the fam bam. it was a good christmas. january.. new years was the shiet!!!! hosted a party. hella bomb. too bad the party was cut short cause niggas be cuttin up folks. =b .. asssholess.. yeah.. not much for this month. that was about the biggest event for 2006 febuary.. valentine's day was our last day with angela.. i can't be with someone.. who just thrives on me to buy her shiet.. uhh just cause you're a model doesn't you can't work. whatever who cares. but this month wasn't too bad.. hosted a few lounge parties.. march.. i can't really remember.. oh yeahhh spring break parties! fawkin a!!! i swear. that's all i was doing that month. april.. party party.. then i went to az.. i can't believe it.. i met the most beautiful girl there! i went there for her prom.. just to go cause i'd told her i'd go if she goes to her prom. although in the end we still didn't get to go. well.. i could tell you what happened.. i got to az.. met her mom. she was cool. then, picked sayeh up. i had my stunna's on.. but OMG! when i saw her. i thought i was like.. uhhh damnnn is she really sayeh? hella hot! but lol.. umm dont get me wrong. just cause she looked good doesn't mean i'll hook up with her.. boy was i wrong lol. i didn't think her cuteness was actually gonna match her personality. it went hand in hand. i was blown away by her. she loved everything i loved and all sorts of other stuff.. litterally. she could be me in a girl form lol.. so we shopped all day, then ate some stuff. keep in mind i only had 2 hr's of sleep from the airplane.. and 2 red bulls. and we ended up going to a party that night.. where we danced.. and i'd kissed her that night. well we both kissed lol. the next day i woke up with her in my arms. i'd thought to myself. should i? should i not do this? to a beautiful girl? my mind said no, but my heart said yes. damn my heart. so i followed my heart. we were like love birds that morning.. she was getting ready, all day. ate some pho lol she fucked me up on pho.. now i cant eat pho without seeing her face. fawkin a i swear. i'm in love.. that night she cried cause she knew she wasn't gonna go to prom.. we have complications. soOoo.. i held her and told her.. it'd be alright we'll go somewhere else. she was happy then we did go somewhere else. then. that night.. i knew i was in love... why? in a short period of time? because somehow it felt like i knew her forever.. somewhere in my pastlife.. i knew her.. the next day. i had to leave. i wish didn't but i had too cause of the plane ticketing and shiet like that. omg i was so sad. i seriously didn't know i was gonna fall in love. if i knew i would've not booked a ticket back home! lol.. i kissed her goodbye. i thought to myself. was this the last time i was gonna see her? i was nearly heartbroken.. i almost wanted to jump out the plane and die cause it hit me that hard. may.. sigh.. i'm still in love with sayeh.. but parties are just now poppin up. i had to host alot more parties.. i tried to keep in touch with sayeh in every type of way. but i knew.. i wasnt gonna reach to her.. well.. on the other hand. i had alot of weird shiet going on. car projects.. trying to get that ding out of my damn back left panel. shiet is pissing me off. grrrrr... june.. this month.. it's crazy.. i couldn't bear it no more. i wanted to see sayeh. so i purchased a hotel, plane, and car to see her. 3/4 of a Grand.. only for a few hours per day.. i was satisfied. money well spent. i missed her so much. i couldn't do anything but think of her everyday. now.. for a month and a half that i couldn't see her.. or hardly talk to her.. and i loved her that much still? OMFG! it's strange.. why her? i been around the world and i find sayeh? she's that person who takes that loneliness away. i truly missed her in every way. i loved her. sOOo first day to utah. i left my phone at home aint that bout a bitch. but i was smart. i contacted her through pay phones lol. and it worked! didn't worked with daddy but oh well. it worked! i went to her house.. omfg! she opened that door.. i saw her smiled. i nearly died on the spot. she made the world stop. her hug.. omg. to die for. took her out to eat.. and kissed forever! like.. for all the days we didn't get to kiss.. she made up for it. we had our time together.. we watched the stars.. and ran through the waters.. she wore my sweater and i kissed her like it was our last time kissing. the next day was more frustrating for her as much as it was for me. oh well i got 4 kisses from her although we spent our time looking at the sky that night at her house. with her dad lookiing at us. lol.. she told me things, i told her things. i feel so much closer to her. i don't want nothing else bad to go wrong with her. i promised her that the next night. omg.. i was so bored on my last day. i didn't get to see her all day, except for the last few hrs.. shiet sucked..when i saw her it was gravy. but kissing her and being with her for those few last hrs was the best. the best bday i could ever ask for. oh yeah i went to her on my bday. XD .. we danced and we promised under stars. i love you babe. i promise i will never break your heart. i dont to ever see you cry the way you do. i will never let no one hurt you again. this is my justice and i'll fight for it because you is what makes the loneliness goes away. you are.. what makes the loneliness goes away. | 
